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it is easy to loose our way
to take the horns and tail unknowingly
when we are walking blindly in this world
in a rush.
rushing.
as always. to some goal.
some goal that is so important
to achieve, we must.

one day you wake up to a weird room
a room you had no recollection of,
that you've been sleeping in for the past 1 year
never noticed,
how to wood carvings of the headboard looks like
or how in the world theres a hole peeking through the roof
or the pattern of the bed sheet you hurriedly bought one day
so soft to touch.

as i lay here.
so quiet, with only the sound of my breath,
then did i realize the phone in my palm looks amazingly great
and i've never noticed how it manages to reflect the sunlight that way.
did i slip into some time machine?
that erased all my consciousness?
of what is true and what is only a mirage?
what is good and what is evil?
what is polite and what is rude?

no, i did not scream at the nurse who woke me up
i didnt even pass any chilling remarks to her either
for callling the wrong number in this early morning during my offday

i guess.
i am awake.
i hope. i will stay awake like this.
careful not to slip into the pit of pressure riding fire everyone seems to be in
the kind of licking fire that takes away all the goodness in you
the kindness that all of us should have.
must have.
the gist of angels above.


Happy be-lated raya/merdeka; anyway. :D