For-w-a-r-d!

It's a weird feeling when a pt of mine asked,
how long i've been working
and the curt answer i had to give was
14 days.

off tagged, and i'm left to ponder about life again
time to spare and time to think
what am i going to do with my new life here
alone in sarawak with a bunch of new faces, new personalities.
HUS/SGH. the place i choose with my itchy itchy hands.
it's suddenly so quiet.
no sunny's jokes/laughter. no lippy's senyum sinis. no uma's kadavale.
no lalang's toothy smile.
the 2 weeks went by like a film on fast forward.
ppl crashing ppl dama-ing
and xinli turning incoherent.

i know,
its part of something called Change.
and with the spare time, the feeling of weirdness + emptyness creeps up.
It's not the 1st time, but it is certainly a major life changing event.
and i tend to retract back to the happy times i had in med school
with the most crazy bunch of friends - ah, the happy happy time we had.
the facial spasm. the stupid jokes. i. miss. you. all.
I hope i will not loose my smile as the days go by.

but, no matter what,
i know
we all have to move on.
for better or worst.
no matter rain or shine.