Ze trip to Kuching

I never thought that i would actually join my lelong, lalang, their respective bffs, my super cfcs partner and my newly discovered youngest coolest macik saudara to the land of the Cats -The miow miow city. :D

Oh well. I didn't actually get to see lots and lots of cats loitering in the streets, but what i did discovered is, kuching aint that "ulu" and tiny as I expected. (yes. xinli is geography blind )
Kuching's HUGE! Everything is humungeous! The houses. The Library. Imagine, you could actually build a house on top of the round about! Wohoo.

And, the thing about traveling with a group of friends is that you will coincidently discover the usually well hidden side of themselves.

I discovered a lot of interesting traits of others during this trip. The cute. The funny. The hilarious side of others. The deep thoughts. The motherly side. The protective side. Ah. things that i never knew. or should i put it as , things that i thought i knew, but was proved otherwise.
Ok.. enough blabbing..now, on to the much awaited pictures -!

See! we are not that heavy after all!

Everybody! Strike a pose!
Ah.. lalang 's trying to kill me! :p

Flying crocodile in action

Cannibalism. urgh.
Action packed shows!
Orang utans in action. I heard, 1 of them is actually Edwin.
Darlie advertisementT's neighbour's doggieFOOD; @ buka puasa time~

This trip was blessed with 2 honey-sweet angels, who spent their precious time and money with us. A special thanks and muaks to you guys! Thank you soooo much!

A very potter musical

If you are a harry potter fan,
you are definitely going to love this!

Happiness; redefined

I did it.
I made it through the 5 years.
The 5crucial years of my life.
With the unwavering support from my pa and ma
Where i transcend from a shy teenager to a young adult.
Where i was filled from an empty bin to a sponge heavy with anatomy, physiology and a range of knowledge to heal and treat diseases
where i met teachers, doctors, professors, patients, people from all walks of life that would certainly leave a mark in my life.
they had improved me into a much greater level than i thought i would achieve.
they taught me about life. about inequalities. about religion. about happiness. about impermanence and change. about philosophy. about sports. about greeting the cleaner. about karaoke. about attire. about smell. about astronomy. about things other than the all-important-medical stuff.
in which a "thank you' would never be enough to express the gratitude and appreciation i have.

Here, i found friends. people that shared and made memories with me. shed tears with. had facial spasms due to uncontrollable laughter with. cooked with. celebrated birthdays with. danced with. visited various foodstalls with. ate dominos with. shared heart wrenching episodes together. people that taught me new vocabulary. invented new syndromes. rocked msn with. i found friends; friends that found a way into my heart. in which i will cherish forever.




Happy hols :)

countdown begins at T -10

c107,
Ganbatte kudasai!!

The sayonara syndrome

MSN chatting is not all about gossip.
It could be intellectual at times.
Here, lalang and i we hatched the idea of the Sayonara Syndrome**
In which, I believe that all the symptoms described in the previous Glacius* post, fit its criteria.


The Saynonara syndrome
Pathophysiology : suppression of overwhelming sadness with a tinge of self denial and realization of impermanence

Risk factors : 1. schooling for quarter of a century 2. medical students like us

Etiology : pressure of ending school + looming exam + porties + parting with friends

Symptoms : 1. incoherent speech 2. flight of ideas 3. mood swings 4.sudden facial changes 5. self isolation

Mgx : 1. lots of social support 2. suggests individual to focus on exam 3. pharmacology treatment is strongly not recommended as it blunts the necessary intelligence for preparations of exam.


Prognosis : Good, resolves with time.


[*Glacius is a freezing spell in the Potter world ]

Glacius

Sometimes I feel that life is passing me by,
not slowly either,
but with ropes of steam and spark-spattered wheels
and a hoarse roar of power or terror.
It's passing, yet I'm the one
who's doing all the moving.
~Martin Amis

The feeling im having is weird.
down-right weird.
my mind is slowing everyday to a slow motion

the etiology is not from the stress of the looming exam,
and it's certainly not love (rolls eyes; who has time for this?!)
but more of
the idea of being thrown into the real world,
parting with friends that i've made in this 5 years,
leaving buddies tat make me laugh until i have facial spasm..
packing my bags to say goodbye to home sweet home again..
leaving school for the 1st time in nearly a quarter of my life..

it doesn't feel like being stuffed into a pressure cooker,
and it certainly doesn't feel like dying
it's ... weird indescribable feeling of utter blah.
its like im anticipating for the next page,
the next chapter,
to progress,
to spread my wings and fly,

but at the same time,
deep within the gray matter..
i know that i'll be nostalgic of this chapter of my life
i realize i'm secretly hoping that time will just freeze.
stop. pause. whatever. just make it last longer..

time waits for no one,
but, ah.. with the potter mania; magic, perhaps?

Fate binds us all

The thing about "working" at hometowns is that,
inevitably, you'll bound to meet someone you know

- xinli

For the 1st time ever, my 12-hour oncall was so meaningful.
It was way better than filling up that few spaces of my log book.
Yesterday, apart from getting to know kaklong&kaklang my friends better, I was extremely happy about what had happened. And it's really simple joy+shock+ekkz that prompted me to blog about it.

It was like, wow! omg! walking into a flash bang at 2am in the morning sorta thing.
No warnings. No flash lights.
Pure jodoh

The thing was,

i met my long lost primary school friend.

we never met after we part ways after primary 6.
I went to Convent, while she went to Chinese High School.
The circumstances that we met that day was simply outta this world!!

Never had i imagined that i would meet her again,
when she's in labour, for her THIRD child! 3rd! tiga! @,@


it's been 13 years since we met.
And if you are doing the calculations,
I was 11 when i was in primary 6.
13 years.
13 years down the road.
she has 3 kids + loving husband.
while i on the contrary is practically kid-less+zero-lovelife.
we have such a different life.
even though we had the same education for 6 years.

Ah...
You just can't beat jodoh
and the invisible string that binds us all together.

The professional juggler

I feel like an overflow-ed reservoir
I have lots to say, lots. Tonnes, Noones and Zonnes ( ok, i made this up :p )

A lot has been happening lately
its like balancing my weight on the tip of an iceberg
on the digitus minimus
while being bombarded by asteroids

Portfolios,
life events,
the near ending of another chapter of my life,
being awake for 24 hours straight and still having to answer to Questions posed by dr_K during class,
delivering,
resuscitating,
keeping a straight-alert face when in fact im-so-dead-tired , scrubbing in with the yellow hat,
snatching the scissor from the HO to cut the sutures,
counting down to the FINAL exam... is ........... ---
ah .
the aiyo-kadavale(taught by uma)-indescribable-exhilirating grey-matter stretching-experience.

And.. I know, i know, its going to get more and more intense as the final weeks creep in,
but i still cant shake off the idea that these experiences would be a really good material to laugh about during our 40 years reunion.

Fore!

R.I.P MJ

xinli is very much in the portfolio frenzy now = no time to talk / blog / sleep :(

Wa..what in the world?

Talking dogs!

cheers

2 months to adjust and back to swimming routine :)

Do you have 1 hour and 40 minutes to spare?

If you can spare 1 hour and 40 minutes and you just love mcdonalds,
watch this free movie : super size me ;
see what happens to this guy who took mcD 3 times per day for 30 days!

The art of fishing

In semester 10, we are required to learn the fine art of fishing and its humongous secret(s).
Yes, and i do mean fishing.

Well, you see,
before all of us graduate into the real world,
first and foremost,
we gotta learn something
something to survive out there

And, this holy task of educating us to be top notched imu grads,
is devised in a way that not many could understand..
well basically, the task the admin ppl had to do
was to throw us to H. Batu Pahat,
to learn.. LEarn.. LEARN...it!

but... learn wa-what?

Simple.
We were required to write up catch ten cases big rare/interesting fish-ies..
well, initially, 10 does sound like an easy task,
come on, i could easily net 10 in a month in seremban!
what's the big deal!? - so. i. thought.

Hence,
armed with good spirits, some fishing rods, some cacings and sampans we took from seremban..
we waited...
and waited...
and waited.....


Not long,
we came to our senses to realize that interesting cases big fishes are scarce
Suspicion amongst us grew like wild fire.. who is catching all the fish-ies?
Did some use bigger more canggih super fish nets while some others are using kampung style fishing rods?
Did they arm themselves with ultrasound guides?
Or did some built their own fish farms?

Ahh...
Out of desperation and fear..
We all failed to see the big picture.
the reason was s i m p l e.
it was a small pond,
the fishes were limited. the demand outweighs the supply.
We just got to be patient and have faith.

But, it wasn't that easy to learn new things.. things that you thought you knew, but wasn't tested.
i too realize that my angels were on holiday starting from 2nd week onwards..
i got nothing but broken bones, head contussion, rib fractures tins cans, twigs, boots, false alarms, and not to mention falling into the cold water for a few times. Jumbled together with the roller coster adrenaline charged rides you get, when you suddenly feel a tug (gasp) - immediately your spirits run high thinking :yeah finally its my turn and im getting 1!! but it crashed down so badly when you realize it has already bitten somebody's cacings..

Oh anyway..
as the saying goes, Everything comes gradually and at its appointed hour.
i caught one biggy during the last 3 days of my posting! yea! after 4 weeks of tincans-twigs-boots-of DRAUGHT!
so adding to the 1 biggy during the very first week, i'm now safely in comfort zone.
Phew, was that close! my angels came back just in time!

So, did the holy plan managed to educate us ?
Hopefully.
Instilling
patience.
absolute faith in your guardian angles
and to accept that life isn't always fair, for some hidden reasons that we couldn't possibly understand.
to us ego-maniacs-knuckle heads.. would certainly not be an easy task..

but hey, we are not yet old dogs who can't learn new tricks right?

Sex, lies and bullshit

Well, except for the sex.

Sometimes, for a moment, i tend to forget that i am actually studying in a medical school. where people are supposed to be angels and saints.
Maybe i should have just gone into law school , or meet the devil himself and learn to be a real tough mut.

Blame it on me, maybe i've set my standards too high. maybe this is the real deal.. it's just the tip of the ice berg of what it is happening in the real world. Where people spread lies lies and lies to tarnish a person or, backstabbing is nothing but bread and butter to survive? And, ah... not forgetting the juicy gossips. Where the thin line between truth and lies are blurred and altered beyond recognition. White becomes black and black becomes white; you can't tell which is which. And in the end, we all ended up as sluggish grey.

Is this what we are? The future? The people to lead? To invent? To make a better world?
Where is the dignity? Where are the standards? where where where?! Under the bed perhaps? Or, as i always say, it's just a self protective mechanism?
to be offensive, to protect thee self? Aren't we great minds who think? synthesize theories? Haven't we all heard of - Great minds discuss ideas, mediocre minds discuss events and small minds discuss personalities?

I was hoping for a change.
Yeah right.
some changes
We must advance. Advocate good. Not to whiter and go along whatsoever, to be mindless bull dungs who degenerate and downgrade ourselves to be cannon balls.
Where's your conscience? Have you forgotten why you are here in the first place?
We are supposed to be the crystal balls, the great minds! Duh!

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Random thoughts.

this life,
is nothing but a film,
written
directed,
acted,
by the same person.

a song,
compossed,
and sung
by the same person.

in a fleeting moment
and it's gone,
over,
like a scent in the wind.

so beautiful,
yet
so sad.

-xinli at 2am -

Have you heard of the Tokelau Islands?

Honestly, before today, i didn't even know it existed!
I guess most of us don't know either, it being a group of small islands 32 hours away from new zealand! ...

So, realizing this fact, the residents of tokelau islands thought of an ingenious way to promote their islands
that is,
to provide FREE domains to anyone who needs it.
the domain names that you had spent nights to dream of having,
that special dot.com name that you want,
but, reluctant to spend a dime on it kinda thing,
so, here at dot tk ,
you can now dream of having it Eg, www.xinli.tk or www.anythingyouwant.tk or www.yournamehere.tk
( man, do i sound like a desperate salesperson! ; but good things are meant to be shared, ya?)

well, it doesn't host your website there at dot tk, so you can still retain your original weblink and just direct your new address to the old site. Saves you the time of rebuilding another site eh?
anyway, have fun peeps!

I'm home

Bliss, in the heart

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An Indescribable feeling :-)

MEQ rush

"MEQ are modified essay questions, set in a way so that you are able to redeem yourself" said dr.sara during the start of the marathon of 4-6minutes per paper.
what a rush of adrenaline!!
Anyways.. 1 down, 3 to go~ next stop, ospe!~
gambate gambate!

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This site actually calculates how much you can sell your website* for!!
Be hardworking and maybe you can get your own golden retriever :P
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:) have fun~
and,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR dudes!

Nothing but the truth

white lie or "black lie" is still a lie
and what do you call a person who lies?
a liar.

I support honesty.
because being honest means
i can sleep well,
eat well
sing with the correct tune,
and not being scared of something under the covers which would haunt me for life.

It is often easier said than done.
and every time you make a promise to god,
to be honest and true to yourself,
He would think of ways and means to test your promise.

So, this is the mess i perfectly plant myself into,
to tire myself out, dead exhausted one night..
missing the rounds the other morning,
apart from getting a ear full from my housemate and close friends,
i have to write a very formal letter to explain this absence...
hence armed with this at the very back of my head,
i shall put my best foot forwards,
to be down right honest
with no nonsense
no excuses
and no justifications.

It would be just it.

Nickelback "gotta be somebody"

How true..

All I Ever Really Needed to Know, I Learned in Kindergarten -Robert Fulgham


Most of what I really need to know about how to live, and what
to do, and how to be, I learned in Kindergarten. Wisdom was not at
the top of the graduate school mountain, but there in the sandbox
at nursery school.

These are the things I learned..

Share everything. Play fair. Don't hit people. Put things back
where you found them. Clean up your own mess. Don't take things
that aren't yours. Say sorry when you hurt somebody. Wash your
hands before you eat. Flush. Warm cookies and cold milk are good
for you. Live a balanced life. Learn some and think some and draw
and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some.

Take a nap every afternoon. When you go out into the world,
watch for traffic, hold hands, and stick together. Be aware of
wonder. Remember the little seed in the plastic cup? The roots go
down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but
we are all like that.

Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in
the plastic cup - they all die. So do we.

And then remember the book about Dick and Jane and the first
word you learned, the biggest word of all: LOOK. Everything you
need to know is in there somewhere. The Golden Rule and love and
basic sanitation. Ecology and politics and sane living.

Think of what a better world it would be if we all - the whole
world had cookies and milk about 3 o'clock every afternoon and then
lay down with our blankets for a nap. Or if we had a basic policy
in our nation and other nations to always put things back where we
found them and cleaned up our own messes. And it is still true, no
matter how old you are, when you go out into the world, it is best
to hold hands and stick together.

7 weeks to go till that exam
everything else seems so insignificant now..
It feels like this: meditating with no oxygen..

It's beautiful

Today,
right after CME,
i reported to the sister's room before joing Ms. J in the OT
and i stumbled upon this hanging in her room,
starring, and waving frantically back at me .. well.. literally..

I do my thing and
you do your thing
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
and you are not in this world to live up to mine.

You are you
and I am I

and if by chance we find each other,
it's beautiful."

i wasn't spying or anything, just that the room was empty and i was simply looking around :p